I have recurring suicidal thoughts.?

How do I stop them?



A little background on myself, I am 22 and live with my mom, step-dad, and little brothers. I lost my job 3 months ago and haven't been able to find one since. My mom has been putting extreme amounts of pressure on me to find one asap even though the job market sucks so much. I have applied at shitty *** places like McDonald's, Pizza Hut, Chipotle, Macy's, Khol's, etc. and heard absolutely nothing from them. I've had like 2 interviews since I lost my job.



I got a hold of my dad and asked him if he'd be willing to help me go back to college and he said he would. He said he'd give me $200 a month to help pay for my few bills and gas for my car if I go to school full time and put my greatest effort into it. I agreed and I want to go.



My mom is not happy with this, she is discouraging me from going to school and still pushing me to find a job that I'll never get. She has taken my laptop and cut me off from any form of communication with my friends. I have no one to talk to and feel lonely and extremely depressed. I keep having suicidal thoughts and the urge to kill myself.



I don't know how to make her understand or how to stop these thoughts from occurring. It is only getting worse and worse. Every time she speaks to me now I just want to break a glass and cut myself up. Please help.I have recurring suicidal thoughts.?
It seems (to me) some sort of (clinical, mild) depression, but be aware that no one can make a diagnosis by internet.

The best bet is seeing a psychiatrist for a proper diagnostic and treatment. If for some reason that's not an option or if you cannot afford therapy, read http://natural-depression.blogspot.com/

In many cases depression will respond quickly to the use of this treatments (within a few weeks), but if this still doesn't work, see a psychiatrist; psychiatric treatment for depression involves antidepressants and usually but not always, therapy.



Hope this helps.

:)
Go back to school. You can get a job and go to school but it is very important. I know it's probably easier said than done but just take one day at a time. When I'm going through hard times my mom always says, "This too shall pass." her mom used to tell her that as well. And they are right, it will. You will get a job and you will get back in school, just stay positive. Maybe you can ask around to see if you can move out w/ someone. People do care and will help if they can. EVERYONE goes through tough times. Don't give up and STAY POSITIVE :)I have recurring suicidal thoughts.?
I'm not an expert on this, but here are just a couple of things I might suggest. The first is, talk to your mom about this and tell her exactly how you're feeling. Tell her you're trying your absolute hardest to find a job, but the job market - as everyone knows - has been just terrible lately. Hopefully she will cut you some slack once you explain this all to her.



The second is, if you can not find a job, then do some small jobs for people in your area. Now that it's spring, you could mow people's lawns. Or you could babysit, walk dogs, etc. Even though it does not seem like you would earn a lot of money from doing this, just remember, it adds up pretty fast. You could put up flyers in local shops or something to advertise.



Also, remember, everyone goes through tough times. Believe me. And suicide is not the answer, it just causes a lot of pain and suffering for the people who love you. But if you give it your all, I'm sure things will start improving before you know it.



I really hope I helped, and I wish you the best of luck %26lt;3 (:
WHOA, WHOA, WHOA. Slow down. Just take a deep breath and chill. Now, in my opinion, your mother should be a little more supportive. Don't kill yourself, though! How would your brothers feel? They would be in the situation you're in now; depressed and constantly stressed. Why don't you find something you're good at and advertise it? Like sewing or babysitting? Or, you could go to a really public place and do stuff for people like make balloon animals, draw pictures of them, do magic tricks, stuff for entertainment. People make a lot of money that way. True, it's not the most fun, but still... it gets you cash. Just try explaining to your mom that if you go to school, you can get a better job. Tell her you can help her out if you have more money, which you can get from a better job. And pray to God for help. GOOD LUCK!I have recurring suicidal thoughts.?
Please don't think of hurting yourself. You are old enough to be on your own, and so if you could find another place for the summer --- maybe at your dad's then go to school, that might be ok? Also, and most important, have hope and pray about your life. God can help you. Tell God about it. God is love. Know that God can help you live a better life. You can have a personal relationship with God by saying the prayer below. God is all-knowing, all-powerful, eternal, holy, love. God loves us and sent us His Son, Jesus Christ, so we can go to heaven if we know and follow Him. Forever means without end -- time on and on without death. Forever is what happens after we die. Either we go to heaven and be with God forever, or we go to hell which is very bad and painful forever. The good people who are saved believers in Jesus Christ go to heaven. The bad people go to hell. We need to know and follow God in this world to get to heaven in the next world. We follow God by loving and obeying Him and loving others for Him. Jesus Christ, God's Son, is our bridge to God. Jesus died on the cross to cancel our sins. We need to accept Jesus into our life as our Lord and Savior forever to receive God's blessing and forgiveness plus go to heaven to be with God forever after we die. This is about being a born-again Christian. Faith in God is a gift from God. You can pray for faith in God. Just speak out and ask God for the faith to believe in Him and to follow Him. Some people find faith in God when they realize the beauty in the world is made by God. Evolution can't explain the world's natural beauty, for example, the parks in the world, animals, flowers, peacocks, sunsets, butterflies, rainbows, etc. After you have your faith on, you can pray a sinner's prayer to be a born-again Christian. This prayer is very important and should be said with a sincere heart and faith in God. This is the prayer: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and that Jesus Christ is the sacrifice for our sins. I have done the following sins (state these out) and I pray to discontinue these sins. I pray to receive Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior forever. In Jesus' name, amen." I'm Lutheran and I like the Baptist churches too. You could check out a Christian church and see about their weekly Bible study group to learn about God's will for your life. You can pray to God about your daily life and have a Christian church pray for you.
You should go to the emergency room when you feel suicidal. You'll be able to speak to a psychiatrist there and get some medication that will help ypou snap out of your depression.



Check out "depression self help" at www.depressiondodging.com for tips on how to deal with depression on your own.