Did I make the right decision?

Greetings:

Over 10 years ago, I pushed my bother completely out of my life. I just want to know whether or not I was justified. Here are the reasons below.



1) He raped me. He forced me to lay on top of him while he jacked off. Ever since then he tells me how small my size penis is and how he thinks my butt looks like a burnt forest. Consequently, I spent the last 10 years battling with my sexuality. Every time, I felt insecure about myself I looked at gay porn or at men who are very athletic. Finally, I discovered he was either bisexual or gay. Thus, I recently gave up looking at gay porn and accepted myself for who I am.



2) He is verbally and physically abusive. IF we talk to each other. He either comments on how he hates my driving, music, what I watch on tv and everything else in between. In addition, he mostly ignores me even if I try to talk to him. However, for some reason he occasionally punches on me. Even if I ask him to stop he won’t. One time, I ran away but he ran after me and continued punching on me. I should mention that he is very strong and athletic. I am fat and weak but good looking. In addition, I thinks he enjoys being beat on. He lets his new girlfriend physically hit on him every time there together. He actually enjoys it because I see him laughing and smiling.



3) He has a bad temper. He gets pissed at everything. This ranges from trying to find a lid for a skillet to asking him to call in a pizza. For example; The other night I called him after work and said once I get closure to the house then you can call in a pizza. I was trying to be polite since he hates everything about me. Well, once I called him, he said “I told you that I was busy.” My response: was OK, but he did apologize later.



4) He is very submissive and easily controlled by women. I don’t know what went on in his 6 year marriage but from what I hear. She was very controlling in what they did, who their friends were, and basically she wore the pants in the family. According to third hand information, he did everything, (i.e/ cooking, cleaning, working, laundry, ect…). Only thing she had to do was grip, complain, and be physically abusive.





To conclude:

About me, I had extreme shyness and learning disabilities for many years. During that time I never spoke and just stayed within the confines of my house. I remained terribly isolated for many years. I think I may have not really been in my brother’s life for over 15 + years. So maybe there’s nothing there to work on. So I guess I should focus on developing a life which probably be easier to do.Did I make the right decision?
Happened is Happen, you can't change the past now.. so, it would be better if you move to a new place and break all types of communication with your brother to start a new life at a new place for your better future and it's important for you to stay calm, cool %26amp; moving ahead with positive attitude.Did I make the right decision?
There's a difference between LOVE and LIKING somone. You can love your brother because he's family but you don't have to like him. I'm sorry about what has happened to you.Did I make the right decision?
Your story really touched me. Ignore the bastard.
Family doesn't HAVE to be in your life despite all the crap you hear. People are brainwashed into believing family is important and should always stick together no matter what. Not the case if your family hurts you. Your brother has serious problems and ruined you in many ways. I'd keep him and my kids as far away from him as possible. (if you have any or ever plan on it) You don't need him in your life, you've done fine without him. I suggest you look into therapy to help you bring all this to a close.