Help Me Understand This?

I don't like eating

When I do I pay an extreme amount of attention to calories

When I eat, I don't want to stop

I feel guilty whenever i eat

Sometimes after eating, I go try to puke it up (not all, but as much as i can)

I weigh 135, height 5"3, age 13....

I can't stand some foods

I will not eat warm pizza

I will not eat greasy foods (unless forced)

I AM FAT

Why do I feel this way?

Am i bulimic?

Am I anorexic?Help Me Understand This?
You have an eating disorder and...

YOU ARE NOT FAT.

You are only 13 and kids your age are growing at a fast rate. the way you look this summer is totally different than you looked last summer and you will change some more before next summer.

You will get taller, more defined, more mature.

This feels so out of control that controlling your food intake might seem like the only thing that you CAN control, so you do.

Its not healthy.

Tell your mother all this and get some help now before you are a scary statistic.

Look up bulimia and anorexia and compare the symptoms to what you are experiencing.Help Me Understand This?
Talk to your mom about how you feel. See if she will make an appointment with your doctor for you. Since you have access to a computer, look up healthy foods. Pizza has fats (cheese) whether its cold warm or hot. You may be bulimic. Your doctor can refer you for an evaluation at an eating disorders clinic or outpatient mental health center. Starving yourself and purging yourself are not healthy. Get help. Good luck.Help Me Understand This?
What i want to know is this. You are a 135 pound. 5 ft 3 inch, teen female i presume... puking up food intentionally, paying extreme amounts of attention to your calorie intake. Who do you want to be?

Who are you trying to be? Who are you torturing yourself to be?

Whos benefiting from your starvation? I know you are not. Neither is anyone else
You sound bulimic to me. Please get a doctor's help. Bulimia is very dangerous. Good luck.